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Never count your chickens, as they say. Don’t speak too soon. Make no assumptions. Hubris.

I am feeling the Flying Fickle Finger of Fate zooming over my head. My doctor just called; Women’s College Hospital told her there’s an “asymmetry” in my left breast and I need to come back for an ultrasound.

This has happened once before, I hasten to add, and I’m still here, with my body so far intact. But it’s scary nonetheless. I looked at the x-ray pictures and thought I saw nothing, but then I’m not a diagnostician. An asymmetry. Well, I’ve never been symmetrical. Symmetry is too bourgeois.

Last month, my friend Louise Edwards, in her late sixties, extremely healthy, a Y-going vegetarian yoga nut, was told she had a brain tumour and died three weeks later. So that finger is very much on my mind.

It’s a good thing my kids don’t read this blog. I’m telling you so I can avoid telling them; they have enough on their plates without worrying about Mama, particularly when there might be nothing to worry about. And in fact, I have now made a resolution for myself: no point worrying. Que sera sera. So I will put it from my head till next Tuesday, when I go back.

But in the meantime, I will relish even more the perfection of this July day, the flowers, the birds, the … the two bright yellow Bell ladders in my backyard, as they inch toward burying the wires.



2 Responses to “asymmetry”

  1. theresa says:

    Keep cherishing the world. My thoughts are with you. Courage!

  2. beth says:

    Thank you, Theresa. I will. And I am glad to have you on my team. Moving right along, she said briskly, and poured another glass of rosé.

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