Friday morning, I was standing outside when a red-winged blackbird landed briefly
on my head. I took it as a good omen that I must look like a small tree.
visiting Auntie Do, staying in an airbnb basement suite near her condo, driving
a snazzy silver VW Golf.
she has a good excuse to say no – she’s 95 and frail. So it’s a triumph we have
already accomplished so much. Friday the weather was terrible, pouring and cold
all day, but still, I persuaded her to go out, and out we went, to a small
mall where – joy for her – there was a huge sale at Sear’s. And she actually
bought some clothes! When she’s alone, nothing is right – too big or small, too
bright or dull. But together we scored several lovely bits of clothing. I know
they will stay on hangers for the rest of her life, but we had
the pleasure of buying her something new, at least.
friends Una, Jean and May, her Scrabble partners and a raunchy, merry crew. We
went to our usual place, the Village Café, and ate mightily and laughed a lot.
of the day before – Do and I went to Ikea, only five minutes away. I never get
there in Toronto, too far and too daunting, so what fun it is here. And
doughty Do loved it too. We bought the usual – napkins, candles, four bright
cotton tea towels for Do for $3.99. By then, she’d misplaced her glasses 3
times and her cane twice, always eventually, after a panicked search,
“Woman in Gold” downtown. The reviews have been lukewarm, but we loved it –
Helen Mirren, superb as always, well matched by Vancouver’s own Ryan Reynolds.
It’s the true story of an elderly Jewish woman’s fight to reclaim the famous
portrait of her aunt by Klimpt, stolen by the Nazis. Sitting beside my very old
aunt, I felt deeply its core message about honouring roots and heritage, the power of family ties, the importance of memory.
brother and I have just sold the portrait of my father painted in 1949 by Alice Neel. The
Klimpt sold for over a hundred million dollars, our Neel, unfortunately, for
considerably less. We had imagined, because Alice Neel is in art galleries around the
world, that our painting would be worth a lot of money, and once again – like
the silver spoon saga – we were wrong. No one wanted a small dark portrait of
an unknown man. It went up for auction twice at Sotheby’s, to no avail. But an
offer came through, and after much mulling, we accepted. By the time expenses
are paid, we will each receive around $10,000. Not quite a hundred million, but
not a poke in the eye. I’d wanted to keep the painting, but let’s face it,
$10,000 for a writer is better than a canvas on the wall, even of one’s father. Especially when there’s
a good $500 copy hanging there instead.
family painting, I wondered about the wisdom of selling ours. No choice – my
brother and I co-own it. Too complicated.
about her childhood. She said as the second-born daughter, she was already
a disappointment; both parents wanted a boy. Her mother Marion’s labour with
her was especially long and painful; “You gave me haemorrhoids,” Marion used to
tell her. And finally, Do was born with black hair, black eyebrows and black fuzz
down her back. “Mama’s family were all fair and ginger, Pa’s family were dark,”
Do said. “So – I might as well say it – Mama didn’t like me right from the
had any confidence.
her balcony, I with wine and she with tea. At one point, she leaned back, and
the chair began to collapse and she with it. She folded backwards, landing on
her back on the rough concrete. I was terrified she was injured, but though she
could not get up, she was okay. I hauled her to her feet and we discovered that
her elbow was purple and bleeding. But otherwise, she was cheery. I however was
nearly faint with stress.
tea, I left for for a long walk through Britannia Park by the beach. Over and
over, this part of Ottawa has saved my life, its ancient trees, huge green
spaces and expanse of river. I’ve walked here in all seasons when visiting my
mother, watching her, as Do said, “just fade gently away.” I walked here when
going through the ordeal of dividing her stuff and during my final stay in her
condo with my kids, for her memorial. And now, visiting her older sister, with
whom I’ve found great friendship and love, I still walk here to breathe and recuperate. Last night it was Canada too that I celebrated – a huge green space
full of immigrants from around the world, cooking over small fires, playing cricket, a
girl in a long red headscarf with a bicycle helmet on top, riding in the warm
this time together. So much to be grateful for.
Ninety-five – living alone, still driving. Her secret: cups of tea.
Sunset over the Ottawa River.
Taken from the car window. If only it weren’t infested with Harpers.
The Chateau Laurier – they just don’t make hotels like they used to.